Posts Tagged ‘Health’

    I’m Doing Everything Wrong, As Usual

    Posted on: March 3rd, 2017 by Randi No Comments

    I had an appointment with physical therapy yesterday morning. I was nervous that the visit would leave me more painful than when I entered but that wasn’t the case.

    My physical therapist, Ashley, explained my injury to me in a way that I understood it completely. I also learned that everything I was doing was wrong and everything I thought was wrong, was right.

    I’ve been afraid to do anything that causes pain for fear of making the whole thing worse. When the reality is that the pain means I’m doing something right. I herniated my disc and like when you squeeze a jelly doughnut, the stuff inside needs to go somewhere. In this case, it went the way that is pressing on a nerve (like the photo). I need to get it to go the other way, the opposite (extension) of how I hurt it (inflection). So my “comfortable” position on my back isn’t helping and I should be laying on my stomach. This is painful, of course, but by doing a few exercises that she showed me, the pain moved closer to my injury and away from my calf. This was a good sign.

    I have 2 appointments next week but two sheets of exercises to work on in the mean time. I still don’t know what this means in regards to my appointment with the surgeon in a couple of weeks but hopefully I won’t have to deal with this pain any more either way.

    When Will it End?

    Posted on: March 1st, 2017 by Randi No Comments

    I’m very thankful that I did end up going to the doctor, otherwise I would still be suffering with the false hope that this will get better if I wait it out. I surprised, really, that it isn’t better. I must have royally fucked something up for it to still be hurting like this.

    I have an appointment for physical therapy tomorrow morning and I’m a little nervous. I just really fear it getting worse. With the help of some very strong pain medication, I am able to sleep through the night. I wake up in a ton of pain but I can make it about 6-7 hours.

    It’s really getting to me that it’s actually getting in the way of my life. I don’t do much, I almost never go out, but the pain is so bad off the meds that I can’t take the dogs out without pain, I’ve left the house less than 5 times in over a month, my mom/zack’s birthdays are this month and we can’t celebrate at a restaurant like we usually do, I can’t take Breya to the parade like I wanted to, I had to postpone a luncheon that his family was throwing for us for getting married, my birthday is in April and I doubt I’ll be healed by then, plus other things that hurt to much to mention. I can’t even go grocery shopping! It’s all these little things that make up my day to day. I can’t do them and it’s unbelievably frustrating. I’m thankful that there is some relief. You have no idea how thankful and I don’t appreciate it nearly as much as the moment the pills wear off and I’m trying desperately to get into a position that hurts the least.

    Whenever I think about all of this, I just want to cry. I know this will get better, I just have to be patient, but I am just so frustrated with my life right now when just a few weeks ago, I couldn’t be happier. I know it’s going to get better, I know that. But being in pain 24/7 takes it’s toll on you. I’m miserable and I’m trying really hard not to be. I’m counting down the days to my surgeon’s appointment and I truly hope he can give me some answer to when this will finally come to an end.

    Damn It

    Posted on: February 24th, 2017 by Randi No Comments

    My back is worse than I thought/it had been. I went to my PCP yesterday because the pain was no better, I couldn’t sleep, my calf was still very crampy/achy/numb and I’ve nearly tripped over my own foot more than a few times (drop foot).

    I explained all of the timeline to him and my symptoms and he checked the strength in my leg and performed an exam. He immediately suggested calling a surgeon. He wanted to get that ball rolling because it could take a while to be seen. He said if it’s as severe as he suspects, I’m going to need back surgery. He prescribed me a much stronger pain medication (hallelujah, I slept last night!) and Ibuprofen in a larger dose and sent me for a “stat MRI.” They got the results back quickly and it confirmed what he suspected. It’s pretty bad. It’s my L5 vertebrae that is herniated and is pressing on the S1 nerve root (I think that’s what she said) which explains why I have the pain and numbness in my calf down to my foot.

    It felt good to have my pain validated. I normally have a pretty high pain tolerance but I always fear that maybe I don’t. I’ve been in pain for over 3 weeks now and I’m frustrated, exhausted, and miserable. It made me feel better to know that I had reason to be. 

    I asked what the chances of me having surgery were and she said that it’s up to the surgeon, of course, but if she had to bet, I should go in there prepared to have the surgery. It’s severely herniated. I really don’t know what that will entail and I’m not sure if it’s something I should be looking up. I’m a worrier and I feel like I’ll end up making myself sick over it. I was assured that the surgeon is amazing so if it needs to be done, it needs to be done. If it needs to be done, I hope it happens soon so I can get it over with and that it fixes the problem. It would be really nice to not be out of order for a month or more every time. I was told that I might be trying physical therapy in the interim. I don’t know what that will involve but I’m happy to try anything to help with the pain.

    The surgeon appointment is on March 15 so hopefully I don’t end up making things worse somehow in the meantime. I’m thankful for my family and Andrew who have been amazing. My mom and brother and sister came over today to straighten up my house. It’s the only thing I want to do and I can’t. I so appreciate them and Andrew stepping up and being helpful and considerate. Poor guy has been forced to hold the fort, make dinner every night and still is caring and patient with me. I’m so thankful for him.

    I feel like there is light at the end of the tunnel but I don’t know how long this tunnel is. Hopefully it’s not that long and I can be on my way to recovery soon.

    Sick of this

    Posted on: February 13th, 2017 by Randi No Comments

    We went to IKEA yesterday. We had been planning this trip for a while since I needed to get our dining room table. IKEA has great prices but we don’t have one close to us, so shipping anything costs $300 right off the bat. Our table, $199 would have cost us $499 to get to us. Sigh. 

    So off we went. Yesterday I woke up with some sciatic pain. I expected it. Every time I hurt my back, sciatic pain follows for a couple of weeks. It sucks but it sure as hell beats the back pain. We drove down to IKEA and wandering around that hurt a ton but we managed. Then we drove over to Microcenter (don’t have one of those either!) so Andrew could get his graphics card. He had been eyeing it for a while and he’s been so amazing, had we had he money sooner I would have bought it for him. He so deserved it. Not to mention, he upgrades, I upgrade! Standing around while he wandered around was bad. I just wanted to sit down.

    We finally got out of there and drove 30 minutes to his brother’s restaurant because I hadn’t been there yet. We got some food and caught up with him for a little while. The pain was getting unbearable so we left out.

    On the ride home, it hit a 9/10 on the pain scale and that’s basically where it’s stayed since. Sciatic pain is usually a shooting pain when you stretch your leg as you want or bend a certain way. I’ve never experienced it this bad. NOTHING alleviates the pain, no position, heat nor ice. I got down on the floor last night to stretch it out and I couldn’t get up. Even trying to roll over put me in excruciating pain. It was about 20 minutes and eventually just forcing myself through the pain to get up. I didn’t sleep much last night. I couldn’t get into a position where it didn’t hurt. God, that sounds like an exaggeration. It’s not. I have a high pain tolerance. I’d been eating Ibuprofen and basically bathing in IcyHot with Lidocaine and no relief. I’d fall asleep for an hour and wake up in so much pain. Since I was in the position it hurt the least in, what was I to do? Rolling over didn’t work. Getting up to pee was just me hobbling in sobs.

    It was so bad I had to go to redicare this morning. I got up to shower, maybe run some hot water on my ass area but it wasn’t working. I had enough momentum to wash my hair (sitting down twice) and had to get out. I thought I was going to faint from the pain. I came out, still snaked, and just fell on the bed. I moved closer to Andrew and got into a certain position that while resting my head on him stopped it from hurting. If I moved it hurt again but in that moment, there was relief. I fell aslee for an hour I think when my mom called.

    Redicare closed at 5:00pm and it was 1:30 at that point so I had to go then. I didn’t want to because I didn’t want to sit there in pain and that’s exactly what happened. Finally I was seen, though, and the doctor prescribed me Steroids, a pain pill, and something to help me sleep. I’m hoping tonight is better. Right now, I’m sitting upright on the couch watching Dr. Strange with Andrew. It’s my first time out of the bedroom today. I took a pain pill and my 2nd dose of the steroids so I’m hoping that’s helping. The pain pill, tramadol, didn’t seem to touch it before so I had to take another. At this point, as long as I don’t move too much and stay leaning to my right, it’s like a 1/10.

    I’m so frustrated because I spent 2 weeks limited to the couch. I couldn’t bend/roll over, I could barely wipe myself or tie my shoes. As soon as my back heals, my sciatic starts and prevents me from doing all of the same things. I just want to go back to normal or at least bring the pain down to a tolerable level. I’m so sick of being confined to bed rest.


    Posted on: February 2nd, 2017 by Randi No Comments

    At 4:30pm on Sunday, I had gotten up to straighten up the house. I spent all day on the couch and couldn’t take it anymore. Since Sunday is garbage night, I planned to get some  chores done. Within 30 minutes I was back on the couch because I hurt my back. It was bad, (TMI) like sobbing on the toilet because I couldn’t wipe myself or get up without incredible pain.

    It still hurts 5 days later. I’m still having trouble getting up easily and bending down. The most annoying part is how painful it is to sit in my chair. Work has been a bit of a pain but my clients have been super cool about it, patient, and checking on me.

    I have things to get done around the house that I planned to do. Andrew was super helpful but he didn’t do the things I planned to so I’d like to get to them. Hopefully I wake up tomorrow almost back to normal.

    6 Months Smoke-Free

    Posted on: January 27th, 2017 by Randi 1 Comment

    It has officially been 6 months since I quit smoking! I don’t regret it. Yes, I have the occasional, “I could go for a cigarette right now” but the majority of the time, I don’t even miss it. I can breathe better. I feel better. I don’t wake up with pain in my chest from the way all that junk settled in my lungs or start hacking at random times. It’s the best thing I could have done for myself and all I did was stop. I quit cold turkey.

    I’m not going to lie, I did not want to quit. I quit because the price was going up not because it was bad for me or because it was the right decision I quit simply because I didn’t want to pay over $8.00/pack. I decided the weekend prior that I was going to quit before the day the prices went up. I told A my plan and since he hated me smoking, he was very excited. I finished that last pack and didn’t buy another.

    The first 3 days were the worst and I would go from being fine to sobbing. I thought of having a cigarette many times in a 5 minute span only to remember, “Oh, wait.” It was a constant back and forth. The first 3 days were the hardest but by 2 weeks out, I was okay. I’ve made it 6 months now. I’m definitely proud of myself and encourage anyone else looking to quit smoking to just stop. It sounds harder than it is. It seems like the worst thing. You don’t want to but you know you should. You can do it and you’ll be so glad you did.

    Three Weight Loss Strategies You Need To Try

    Posted on: February 22nd, 2016 by Randi No Comments

    As many people know, obesity has become an epidemic. In addition to detracting from self-confidence and mobility, obesity can precipitate a wide range of health problems. Some of them include diabetes, cancer, heart disease, and depression. However, individuals who are interested in losing weight and getting on the path to great health and enhanced self-esteem should know that they can shed excess pounds and realize their wellness goals. Here are just three weight loss strategies that can help you do so:

    1. Diagnose Diseases.

    In addition to impairing your body’s ability to function correctly, diseases can prevent you from losing weight by hampering your metabolism. It’s also important to note that many of the medications people take to deal with diseases cause weight gain or compromise your ability to lose weight. In recognizing these realities, it’s important for you to first determine whether you have an undiagnosed disease that is precluding you from realizing your weight loss goals. You can accomplish this objective by using the testing kits offered by companies such as Diagnostics Automation. Once you have diagnosed your condition, you can pursue natural or synthetic treatment methods that don’t compromise your weight loss capacities.

    2. Develop SMART Goals.

    Another important and effective strategy you can use to lose weight is the development of SMART goals. The acronym SMART stands for Specific, Measurable, Attainable, Reasonable, and Time-specific. Individuals who set these types of goals and write them down are more successful in realizing their objectives, and this is why it’s important for you to develop some. An example of a good weight loss SMART goal would be “I will work out for one hour three times a week to lose one pound a week.”

    3. Keep A Food Journal.

    Diet typically plays the most integral role in determining how quickly and effectively you’ll be able to lose weight. For this reason, it’s important to examine the food you’re eating closely. You can do this by keeping a food journal. Online companies like make it easy for you to log in all the food you’ve eaten and then examine important data like how many calories you’ve consumed as well as your carbohydrate, protein, and fat intake.


    If you’re carrying excess pounds and are ready to burn them off, it’s time to develop a strategic plan that will help you accelerate and optimize your weight loss journey. Utilize the weight loss tips and tricks outlined in this article to help you do so!

    Exploring the Benefits of Playing Team Sports

    Posted on: January 6th, 2016 by Randi No Comments

    There is overwhelming research that points to the benefits children receive when they play sports as a group with other children. It has been shown to help children mature physically, emotionally, and mentally. Children who engage in team sports and team play have improved academic achievement. These children are seen to have a stronger sense of self-esteem, and they have fewer behavioral problems.

    A lot of the studies that look at the effect of team sports on children revolve around a concept that is referred to as the five C’s. These include confidence, character, connections, competence, and caring. Each one of these aspects is an important part of youth development. In addition to these aspects, other benefits include teaching a child discipline, especially when they are trying to play sports. Children learn leadership, and they learn how to work as a team. In addition to learning how to take the lead, when a child plays in a team sport, they also understand the importance of following. They see why it is important to follow instructions and be obedient.

    When children win at team sports, they have the thrill and exhilaration that comes from victory. This is really important because it helps a child see that if they push themselves hard, they can excel at something. Excelling at something brings with it external and internal rewards. On the other side of the coin, when a child loses at a team sport, they develop the resilience that comes from understanding that losing at something is not the end of the world. They see that if they get back on the proverbial horse, they can keep playing and win another day.

    Parents can also learn a lot by watching how their children play with other kids. A legendary basketball coach once said about sports that they do not build someone’s character, but instead they reveal said character. This means that the way a child acts when playing a sport says a lot about the type of person they are and can serve as a guide for parents in helping to mold their child to become a better adult.

    Finally, team sports are fun. Children have a lot more fun being out with a group of their friends in an Octopit hitting a ball around as opposed to sitting in front of a computer where they can only click here or click there. Team sports build memories that last a child for the rest of their life.

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    My Mirena Story

    Posted on: September 5th, 2014 by Randi 2 Comments

    Let’s get real for a moment. This is something I want to share with others who are looking for their information on the Mirena. I want to share my story in detail so I will be explicitly talking about my vagina. Lest this serve as your warning. (more…)

I’m Randi, short for RandiLynn. I am a 25 year old blogger, web developer, furmama, and gamer from Northeast PA. I live with my husband and 7 animals. I live, eat, and sleep HTML & CSS. I spend my time creating pretty web stuff, blogging, gaming or binge-watching TV shows.

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