1. Apr

    So it begins…

    3:52 PM   ♥   Comment



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  2. Mar

    The Weekend Begins at 5!

    5:00 PM   ♥   Comment

    Since I am still confined to the house any plans of going out to eat or seeing Logan this weekend are ruined. I hope it’s not much longer.

    Anyway, the Nintendo Switch came out today and because we couldn’t get a preorder, we weren’t expecting to get it. We really want to play Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild and although we can play on the Wii U, we know it’s going to look better on the Switch. We knew we’d be buying one soon. Who are we kidding, as soon as could get our hands on one.

    Andrew went to go scope out some stores and could only find the grey (we really wanted the colored joy-cons!). Like, he was tripping over them. So, I said if they have the joy-cons in stock, grab a grey console. When Mario Kart comes out, we’ll need 4 anyway. We’ll have something fun to do this weekend.

    I’m now eagerly waiting for 5:00pm when Andrew is home and I am off work for us to start this weekend!

  3. Mar

    I’m Doing Everything Wrong, As Usual

    11:14 AM   ♥   Comment

    I had an appointment with physical therapy yesterday morning. I was nervous that the visit would leave me more painful than when I entered but that wasn’t the case.

    My physical therapist, Ashley, explained my injury to me in a way that I understood it completely. I also learned that everything I was doing was wrong and everything I thought was wrong, was right.

    I’ve been afraid to do anything that causes pain for fear of making the whole thing worse. When the reality is that the pain means I’m doing something right. I herniated my disc and like when you squeeze a jelly doughnut, the stuff inside needs to go somewhere. In this case, it went the way that is pressing on a nerve (like the photo). I need to get it to go the other way, the opposite (extension) of how I hurt it (inflection). So my “comfortable” position on my back isn’t helping and I should be laying on my stomach. This is painful, of course, but by doing a few exercises that she showed me, the pain moved closer to my injury and away from my calf. This was a good sign.

    I have 2 appointments next week but two sheets of exercises to work on in the mean time. I still don’t know what this means in regards to my appointment with the surgeon in a couple of weeks but hopefully I won’t have to deal with this pain any more either way.

  4. Mar

    Not Your Place

    2:31 PM   ♥   Comment

    Recently, I had to block a family member for sharing information that wasn’t there’s to share. I see it happen to friends and see people complaining about it online in relationship forums. I never thought it was something I had to worry about.

    It was a comment posted on a Facebook status that had nothing to do with the subject of the post. What struck me as he most infuriating was that it was so far off topic that it reaked of attention seeking. It was a very bold “I know something that others don’t, let me show them how important I am”. What’s worse is that this was something I did not share with this person. Instead it was overheard because they feel the need to stick their nose in business that doesn’t belong to them.

    There are aspects of my life that are private, that I share with immediate family and there are things that I keep from certain people because those people don’t deserve to know. In either case, I prefer to tell those people. I don’t need my business shared through to family members that I don’t speak to nor have a relationship with. If I wanted them to know, I would tell them.

    If you have good or bad news about someone, it’s not your place to tell. Simply mind your own business and leave it to that person to deal with. Dont resort to being a gossip because you have nothing worth sharing in your own life. It’s not your place.

  5. Mar

    When Will it End?

    3:29 PM   ♥   Comment

    I’m very thankful that I did end up going to the doctor, otherwise I would still be suffering with the false hope that this will get better if I wait it out. I surprised, really, that it isn’t better. I must have royally fucked something up for it to still be hurting like this.

    I have an appointment for physical therapy tomorrow morning and I’m a little nervous. I just really fear it getting worse. With the help of some very strong pain medication, I am able to sleep through the night. I wake up in a ton of pain but I can make it about 6-7 hours.

    It’s really getting to me that it’s actually getting in the way of my life. I don’t do much, I almost never go out, but the pain is so bad off the meds that I can’t take the dogs out without pain, I’ve left the house less than 5 times in over a month, my mom/zack’s birthdays are this month and we can’t celebrate at a restaurant like we usually do, I can’t take Breya to the parade like I wanted to, I had to postpone a luncheon that his family was throwing for us for getting married, my birthday is in April and I doubt I’ll be healed by then, plus other things that hurt to much to mention. I can’t even go grocery shopping! It’s all these little things that make up my day to day. I can’t do them and it’s unbelievably frustrating. I’m thankful that there is some relief. You have no idea how thankful and I don’t appreciate it nearly as much as the moment the pills wear off and I’m trying desperately to get into a position that hurts the least.

    Whenever I think about all of this, I just want to cry. I know this will get better, I just have to be patient, but I am just so frustrated with my life right now when just a few weeks ago, I couldn’t be happier. I know it’s going to get better, I know that. But being in pain 24/7 takes it’s toll on you. I’m miserable and I’m trying really hard not to be. I’m counting down the days to my surgeon’s appointment and I truly hope he can give me some answer to when this will finally come to an end.

  6. Feb

    Damn It

    9:03 PM   ♥   Comment

    My back is worse than I thought/it had been. I went to my PCP yesterday because the pain was no better, I couldn’t sleep, my calf was still very crampy/achy/numb and I’ve nearly tripped over my own foot more than a few times (drop foot).

    I explained all of the timeline to him and my symptoms and he checked the strength in my leg and performed an exam. He immediately suggested calling a surgeon. He wanted to get that ball rolling because it could take a while to be seen. He said if it’s as severe as he suspects, I’m going to need back surgery. He prescribed me a much stronger pain medication (hallelujah, I slept last night!) and Ibuprofen in a larger dose and sent me for a “stat MRI.” They got the results back quickly and it confirmed what he suspected. It’s pretty bad. It’s my L5 vertebrae that is herniated and is pressing on the S1 nerve root (I think that’s what she said) which explains why I have the pain and numbness in my calf down to my foot.

    It felt good to have my pain validated. I normally have a pretty high pain tolerance but I always fear that maybe I don’t. I’ve been in pain for over 3 weeks now and I’m frustrated, exhausted, and miserable. It made me feel better to know that I had reason to be. 

    I asked what the chances of me having surgery were and she said that it’s up to the surgeon, of course, but if she had to bet, I should go in there prepared to have the surgery. It’s severely herniated. I really don’t know what that will entail and I’m not sure if it’s something I should be looking up. I’m a worrier and I feel like I’ll end up making myself sick over it. I was assured that the surgeon is amazing so if it needs to be done, it needs to be done. If it needs to be done, I hope it happens soon so I can get it over with and that it fixes the problem. It would be really nice to not be out of order for a month or more every time. I was told that I might be trying physical therapy in the interim. I don’t know what that will involve but I’m happy to try anything to help with the pain.

    The surgeon appointment is on March 15 so hopefully I don’t end up making things worse somehow in the meantime. I’m thankful for my family and Andrew who have been amazing. My mom and brother and sister came over today to straighten up my house. It’s the only thing I want to do and I can’t. I so appreciate them and Andrew stepping up and being helpful and considerate. Poor guy has been forced to hold the fort, make dinner every night and still is caring and patient with me. I’m so thankful for him.

    I feel like there is light at the end of the tunnel but I don’t know how long this tunnel is. Hopefully it’s not that long and I can be on my way to recovery soon.

  7. Feb

    So Close

    4:55 PM   ♥   Comment



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  8. Feb

    Our New Baby!

    3:55 PM   ♥   Comment

    We got a new car!

    Last Wednesday Andrew came home and said his engine was making a knocking sound. We discussed taking it into the garage this weekend and that was it. When he came home on Thursday for Lunch he had died once and it was making a loud screeching noise. He called out to take it to the garage with my mom and died on the way there. He made sure to re up his AAA membership earlier in the day, just in case, so when he died he could be towed to the garage. He died less than 2 blocks away and had to call them. It turns out is wasn’t worth fixing so we were without a car Friday. My mom took him to and from work.

    Saturday, she took him to go look at others. I haven’t been sleeping well because of my sciatic so I didn’t go, instead opting to stay in bed and get some actual sleep. I knew he could handle it. I got some sleep and he got us a new car.

    It’s a 2013 Suburu Forester and it’s so cute! It’s roomy and clean. I’m excited because this will be my car in a few years (if I ever get my license) and I love it. Andrew likes it a lot too. Now if I can only get my back healed so I can go for a ride in it!

  9. Feb

    Should You Have Horse Insurance?

    1:01 PM   ♥   Comment

    Horses are incredibly beautiful animals that have long inspired writers, artists, and of course, the equestrians who ride them. The relationship an owner has with her horse goes far beyond an “investment.” Horses and their owners share a deep bond that is incredibly meaningful. The reality, too, is that buying a horse is an expensive proposition, and a horse, being a living creature, is subject to illness and accidents that can be expensive.

    For all these reasons, any owner of a horse should take the time to review horse insurance policies and make sure they are protected in the event anything happens to their animal. An injury to a horse is a real danger, and the medical expenses associated with treating a horse can add up very quickly.

    A horse owner should have major medical insurance, as a horse can become seriously injured or suffer a serious illness that requires expensive treatment. There are other types of insurance though that an owner should consider for protecting their horse and themselves.

    Horse Liability Coverage

    Though horses are gentle and loving creatures, their massive size and tendency to be skittish and unpredictable at times leaves them open to causing injury to the people around them, as well as to their trainers. A person standing close to a horse can be knocked down and trampled if a horse is startled. A rider can be thrown off a horse. There are many possibilities of injuries that a horse can cause, and for all these reasons it’s imperative that an owner carry solid liability insurance for their animal. There are many insurance companies that specialize in this type of coverage, so it’s wise for an owner to look into the type of policy that’s appropriate.

    Horse Mortality Insurance

    Along with medical and liability, a horse should also have mortality coverage. Horses often die of illness or injury before their time, and this can mean the loss of a significant investment for the owner. Again, having the right protection is important, so coverage for the horse’s mortality is also strongly advised.

    A horse is a beautiful animal that can bring a lot of joy to an owner. Having the right coverage can ease any stress an owner may have, so if you have a horse, be sure to talk to an insurance broker about the right protection for your beloved animal.

  10. Feb


    7:15 PM   ♥   Comment



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I’m Randi, short for RandiLynn. I am a 25 year old blogger, web developer, furmama, and gamer from Northeast PA. I live with my husband and 7 animals. I live, eat, and sleep HTML & CSS. I spend my time creating pretty web stuff, blogging, gaming or binge-watching TV shows.

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